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I Will Not Be That Black Person You Need Me To Be

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

We are in the midst of another cycle of oppression boiling over into the streets. In Baltimore, protests have erupted over the death of Freddie Gray who died a week after being arrested by police and suffering a broken spine. Protesters took to the streets [...]

When Talking About Race Upsets Your White Mother

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

My mom has the cheery demeanor, moral sensibilities and lingo of a Leave It To Beaver episode. “Don’t be such a sourpuss,” she scolds. “Have you ever smoked a doobie?” she inquires. “Oh, that is just terrific!” she exclaims. My mom is what I’d like [...]

My Name is Carrie, and I Medicate My Son

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

My 10-year-old son has autism. And we give him anti-anxiety medicine every day. If someone had told me fifteen years ago — back when I was a smart, chic, kind of fit twenty-something newlywed — that my new husband Joe and I would one day give our child a [...]

My Friend Died in a Police Van. That Could Have Been Me – if I were Black

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

My friend Hanuman was cremated two weeks ago, his ashes now sit in a wooden box on his parent’s alter. The cause of his death is still being investigated, but we know he died shackled to a bench in the back of a prison van. [...]

Sick, Tired, and Hopeless: Accepting the Racial Realities of Being Black in America

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

I can no longer witness the senseless murder of people of color by the police without breaking down in tears. The recently released video that captured 50-year-old Walter Scott being shot in his back eight times as he attempted to run away from white police officer [...]

When Gelato Gets Racial or a Little Girl Hears the N-Word for the First Time

2016-11-29T17:39:13-05:00

As the wheels continue to fly off my personal life, moments of simple joy and normalcy are increasingly hard to come by. My son’s unexpected visit home this week promised to be an opportunity to simply be present with family and savor the simple joys of [...]

Hey Mama

2016-11-29T17:39:14-05:00

Hey Mama, I’m feeling alone this morning. I miss Mississippi. I miss you. How you feeling? Hey Kie, I’m tired. I’m wearing the pearl bracelet that you gave me. It is so beautiful. This morning I managed to get it locked alone. Did [...]

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